do you ever just mentally catch up with what has happened in the last few hours and realize that things are good and warm and sunny but feel a lingering sense of emptiness because you do not have a camera or something to draw on, something to record that moment that moment will just be over in just a matter of time so you just sit there but you can’t enjoy the sun anymore or the warmth anymore because you realized it will be gone soon. It is not permanent. Nothing is.